BLOOMED BLUE AND WONDER I've been stunned And I've been turned I've been undone and burned I saw you as the answer to Years of blue and wonder Your voice shakes me through But you don't know what I might be You haven't seen the worst of me But when your eyes move up I'm silent Put your arm around me And pull your mouth up to mine And that's the word I forget sometimes It's the one that means The love has left your eyes I'm thinking now when I first knew I was lying with a stranger You were curled up with a paper In your little SOMA room The telephone was pouring blue And when I hung up with you I was sick and sad and wished I had Just a kiss to bring you over I'm wondering of you now And what happened to you I remember words That were said and sighed and written But I hear things, you know I hear the bottle broke us down But not a word from you yet There's things that Even a drunk will never forget RAINSQUALL The crowds break up a little, then Here comes the rain again As the rain breaks through the branches And southbound forty-two The green I knew left us Wet-eyed red and bluebird blue The moon's crying through the breaking clouds As I pour through another town There's lights off the coast and I love you most When the rain comes weeping down Rainsquall, dear That's me you hear And when the blue breaks through Honey, I still want you What I said my darling And what you did my dear Has left us in a downpour Of misery and tears And where are you tonight, I wonder My wonder, where are you As the rain breaks through the branches Along the southbound forty-two Rainsquall, dear That's me you hear And when the storm moves on Dear I might be gone 22 The kitchen drawers were open Hot water in the bath And the phone call that you promised me I'd given up on last I was only 22 All undone and overdue My friends burned all around me And the smoke was full of you But let's stop here for a prayer For what happened there And let us have a beer For anyone who's still here I didn't leave a letter I just wrote my baby's name On the mirror all steamed over With water, heat and shame All hopes were long-time missing They'd had enough of me I found them hanging through the moon From the Hooker oak tree The knife was on the basin Wrapped in my baby's towel My friend the water let me in And I lowered myself down Cause you can drink and you can shake And you can dry up bitter tears But the first to pass right through you Will age you fifty years And you could say, 'well I don't know You got to love just the same' But I say all I got Was a phone call that never came The towel was lying open And it hurt so bad There was red smoke in the water And all the things we'd had Now honey you don't need this heart Now that I'm dead and gone So dig me up and give me back What I never should've lost I was falling asleep You see I felt a little weak I closed my eyes and thought of you As the phone let out a ring MUD Be careful where you lie down, boy In this bed of roses Promises of petals, then You wake up on the other end Love is such a monster, kid And power is addictive Sweet fire and beauty'll turn this city flat And could you really handle that I thought I was through with living once But, lord, the way she lies there breathing In the deepest hour of the night Unraveled, opened full and all undone by And last night we capped the cavern, dear We said the word and we're goin' down Honey you pulled out the big blue And you kissed it all through Christ, how this life From mud to miracle Is just the prettiest little burden Isn't it, El? SIX YEARS I went down to meet my maker And the water tastes salty What's on my lips. The letter you sent me I found a good friend but let her go too easily And what's on my mind. The last time you kissed me It was a foam splint-shackle And twenty hours on a train Six years and I wonder If you were worth the pain I'm wasting away wondering If I'll always love you only And what's holding my heart Is the way you used to hold me GAUSY DRESS IN THE SUN A gauzy dress in the sun And a blue-moon-bloomed And we drove out over the line With so long to go And someone I'd left behind I thought of you, A lake I drink And I turned out lazy, hot and meet But the well went deeper dear When you brought your water here You made a liar out of me But, Lord, the things the I've seen: A Stone Mountain star shower And you lying next to me Autumn rolls from green to blue And when I roll over, too I won't leave a thing undone A gauzy dress in the sun You're the one, you're the one A gauzy dress in the sun UP NORTH Up North there's a place for you To start your still-life up again We make our plans from spit and dust The sound of never and the taste of love They chased us through the Mission, We were tromping through the woods And the skirts of sweet Natoma Scared us both pretty good So here's to leaving it all behind: Fathers, lovers and an ugly wage We've always known what's best for us The sound of never and the taste of love I'll be lit up like the sunrise And you'll be Russian Blue Next storm that I see off the coast Will bring me back to you THIS IS WHERE This is where things start going bad This is where the map gets Torn up and tossed Put to sleep with the hoof Ans the trip to the cross A bowl and a porter For the drawn and quartered I'm gonna sit here dear And see who makes the law This isn't a goodbye letter, This is a should I be here at all I'm not gonna take it easy I'm gonna go to bed mad And this is where things start going bad I took off a year And I took off my dead skin But I didn't take it down to zero Just to take it all again This is where we sat, And this is where we kissed This is where you yelled At the MUNI we missed This is where things start going bad This isn't something good But this isn't something sad This isn't for what we've got This is for what we had And this is where things start going bad This is where things start going bad DAISYCHAIN Don't you feel bad That I forgot your name I keep your face On the daisychain This way I keep you close And blue-sky-blue And whenever I want I think of you My dear, my darling, My heart's desire My bones burned down And they're still on fire I called you once in a fit And your roommate slipped She said you weren't coming back From your day trip Now I stay quiet With no one above me I stay put With an angel who loves me I watch her sleeping And she loves me, too But sometimes, dear, I still think of you I thought I was a winner I left town with the roses I pulled the pickets apart And drove one through the heart So don't you feel bad That I forgot your name I keep your face On the daisychain DESIRE I got a drive-away car in Georgia And baby boy, there's two lines in the road: One to leave you lonely And the other to leave me alone To get down to the easy flow You've got to cut through the thick brew Honey, I've shamed your angel name The drunkest and deepest cut I've made Oh, my petal in the puddle, I'm talking about the time I've been long gone I shot my insides out with grief and Mr. Kessler CRADLE TO THE ANGEL All tanked up And dressed down in desire And I hope you understand I'm not your man anymore My dear I miss you dearly Once I thought this breeze Would blow the orchard down I guess the fire just never withered in me When I die all I'll ever leave Is ash and tears that once was you and me From the thumper to the drinker, The cradle to the angel I'll be looking over you Pass me up or lay me down Once I wanted an explanation But now I'd settle for just a sound What's the name they call ones like us: A bouquet of shadows in the evening sun I sat up late and watched you sleep And you said you'd waited thirty years for me Another painter-over hardwood floor And off the hallway, dear, another trail of tears Out past the couple, and onto the street I emptied my flask out at your feet Austin are you calling Atlanta are you there Eupora are you dreaming That you saw my darling dear SURPRISE AZ Mother do you see what's about to happen I'm gonna turn us around And we'll be gone Put your arms up dear And we'll keep the casket open When they take us back to Oklahoma Where we belong Surprise, Arizona Put us out of our misery I'm 34 you were 21 He told me once that he knew When he first saw you But were you happy then I'd like to know I think about him still When I see you alone And you know about me at only 23 You saw her come and go As I went through everything I had But mother did you see What was gonna happen She let me down so far I never quite made it back all songs written by Richard Buckner (BMI) ©1994 Buckeluckus Music /Stip Music Ltd.